8. My wants & dreams!

My biggest dream is to have a debt free life and to enjoy that life making unforgettable memories with my husband and my daughters! You know I’m not the type of person who wants the extravagant stuff. We are simple people and at 42 years old, all we are looking for is comfort and stability. Mark has worked hard most of his life. (I can’t say all of his life because he is still alive)😂

Mark had worked four jobs while we raised Mark’s four half sisters: his full time job wits with Acadian Ambulance as an EMT Intermediate, he also had a part-time job as a dispatcher for Natalbany fire department, he had another part time job as a medic for Jazzland theme park in New Orleans and last he had another part-time job being a chauffeur for a friend of ours who owned an airport shuttle. He didn’t complain much because it was just what had to be done to pay the bills and to give the girls a better life.

We went on two Medical mission trips to El Salvador. Those two trips were major eye openers for me! I love to give to others and do things for others who cannot do for themselves; so in saying that, one of my biggest dreams is to start doing mission trips again. There are so many people who are a lot worse off than I am and I want to give what I can while I am still able to do it.

I want to be able to take yearly vacations with my family and make memories because of starting a family so late in life, I am afraid that I will not be able to do that for long. That part makes me very sad.

I would like to sell my house and move or renovate this one. In saying that when my husband and I were building this house we made sure the hallways and doorways were wide enough for a stretcher or a wheelchair but we did not think about the future and how we would be down the road. Now to do all of this, that we would love to do, you need money. People are so hung up on money and I have seen the ugliness that loved ones have because of money. We don’t have a lot right now because my husband now works from home as a licensed Realtor. He had to find something where he can work from home because I need him to help me and we have two small children who take up a lot of our attention and time. The thing is that you have to get your name out there and when people think Mark Cheramie jr. they think paramedic so we are having to retrain people to think realtor when they think of Mark. I know it will happen and I have total faith, but it is so hard to patiently wait. I’m getting off the subject!! LOL! One of the main reasons that I want to move and rebuild or buy is because when we built this house we built it for the four girls (well it was actually three) but I feel like this house has so many memories of the other kids here and I would like to start fresh with my babies!

My disease gets in the way so much and gets so frustrating because when the girls were here I could do so much more and what I couldn’t do there was always someone here to help me. Now I don’t want to make it sound like my nine-year-old doesn’t help me at all because she does but I want her to be able to be a child and play and spend the night with friends and grandparents without worrying that someone needs her help. That is sure not what was on my mind at nine years old. I sometimes feel like I have given the best of myself to the girls and my babies are getting the leftovers. I know that’s not true because God knows what he’s doing, but it’s hard not to think that way. I don’t want someone to come and take the role of taking care of my children or cleaning my house even though that would be great 😂, but just some help. I have so many pictues that I want to frame & use to decorate with and find ways to help Mark in the office and get things organized but I so don’t want to put anymore on my husband. His load is greater than anyone I know being cleaner, cooker, chauffeur, helps take care of me and the children, and breadwinner. That is such a huge load to bare but he doesn’t complain or place blame on me. But it is so hard not to feel like a huge burden but I know that there is a reason for everything. We just have to keep on keepin on!

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