Sometimes I lay in bed and the wheels in my brain just won’t quit and at that point I am pleading for it to at least slow down so sleep 😴 can come and I can face the next day! So I’m laying here wondering how I got so lucky 🍀 ? I have a difficult life but am so unbelievably blessed!!! I haven’t posted about this yet because I’m sure it will be another VERY long post! I am a believer, a born again Christian and I very much believe that everything happens for a reason. God doesn’t make mistakes!!! We go through trials and tribulations for a purpose! My heavenly father knows and that’s what keeps me going. But in saying that, the human part of me still has the neverending question “WHY”. An impending question that will not be answered until I meet my maker!
I never thought in a million years that I would be married and raising a family. To go through life with someone and just laying there beside a man who is my best friend and is always there for me, is just so unreal! I remember growing up and having those innocent dreams of finding someone who I could just cuddle with and hold hands with. At 42 years old I still have those innocent thoughts and Mark is always there with a shoulder for me to cry on and to share my dreams with. There’s absolutely nothing like that to have that kind of peace.
I also catch myself staring at my children in total awe and amazement that God chose me to be the mommy of these two beautiful girls. I mean do you ever just look at your children and see the love that two people have can create another human being??? It is just inconceivable that someone like me brought two beautiful girls in this world and to see yourself and your husband in them and everything they do. You know I look at those two girls and I can see so much of myself and their four aunts that we raised in them. I mean it’s quite funny I will look at something that my oldest is doing and it will annoy the fire out of me and I can’t get mad because I’m like I was just like that when I was a kid!😂Stephanie and I are just alike so it’s actually not odd that Maggie takes on lot of Stephanie’s personality. Maggie is somewhat emotional like her mama and she does have a flare for drama. Just like Stephanie, she always wanted to be in the middle of an adult conversation. I remember when we were raising the girls I would get so mad at Stephanie because she just would not go where the kids were supposed to go, she always wanted to be in the middle of adult conversations and Maggie is the exact same way. Maggie will also be the one who will tell you exactly how it is. That is so like me! And if you don’t want to know the truth don’t ask me or her! She is a major Grouch in the morning which is so much like her Moo Moo, Victoria. And she also can’t take constructive criticism and thinks she knows everything just like her Moo Moo. But that is a good thing because I do not see Maggie taking any lip off of anyone and she will stand her ground! And like Tami she cannot be still for nothing! When Tami moved in and she would have a spelling test the next day, I would call out her spelling words to her. And then she would proceed to spell them jumping the entire time and I would get so annoyed!😂 And both of my girls are just like Rita in the fact that they LOVE ketchup! 😂My sweet Sofia is only two but already I see a lot of me and Victoria in her. She is a social butterfly which is also like Stephanie but that was so me as a child. I was a lot like Mark is now in that I would make friends with a brick wall. LOL! Sofia loves to meet everyone and will climb up in their arms but only for 2 minutes because then she is off and running. I don’t want to say she is not very affectionate because she is, but she is also just like Victoria in that she does not like anyone in her personal space! 😂And I know they have a bunch of their dad in them but we didn’t know each other as children so I think he should write his own blog!!It appears that I am jumping around a bit so I think I need to go back and write a blog about my 2nd and 3rd pregnancies! So stay tuned….